So for the past 3 days I have been thinking of the possibility that I might move to Victoria for school. 

It is a very hard decision for me. 

1. the expenses

2. the expenses

and 3. THE EXPENSES!

It worries me! It is so expensive! 

I desperately need a roommate to rent a basement suite or apartment and split the cost because I don’t want to share the fridge and the washroom with 3 or more people. 

and housing in uvic is not going to happen. I heard the internet sucks. 

So my youngest sister graduated today!

The sisters! haha

Me: VPA Diploma -media arts
Danielle: VPA Diploma- music
JC: VPA Diploma - theatre This is pretty cool. Haha.

Oh how my heart jumps when I get caught by my boyfriend staring at him sleep. & that amazing smile when he starts to wake up is just soo soo lovely. 

His ‘I love you’s’ always overwhelm me. It feels like I am going to explode! lol. He is too amazing. I just can’t come up with any words to describe how in love and happy I am right now. 

I am so blessed. 

The pain of having a mother who tells you everything that is wrong with your father has always been minimal until the doors of the opportunity came at hand. It is not that I do not see the wrongdoings of my father but its the fact that every word that comes out about my father is just something negative. I’ve had enough and confronted my mom in a rather disrespectful way. 

Every parent needs respect and I am quite sorry for my actions but I just had enough. 

I’m sick of seeing them as an immature beings. I just don’t want to hear it anymore. The negativity that clouds my whole being wants enough of it. 

I know you need me, but I need time to untangle myself in the web that you created. 

I apologize. I just want to be left alone. Is that too much to ask?

Reading The Name of the Wind is exhausting! I started reading at around 11 last night. I stayed up until 2:30am. I regret the fact that I did’t read the book earlier in the day because I am now coughing like a crazy madman. 

I gotta take care of my body! 

On the Brightside, I am almost done with the book! I found my library card stuck to it. So Now, I can borrow books and read as much as I want! :)

I am really insecure about my weight. So when my co-worker told me that I look anorexic, I shed some tears. Yes, I am thin & I’m working really hard to gain weight. It just really bothers me when people tell me to eat more. I eat, and I don’t like to feel bloated so I stop eating when I am full. 

gahh I hate people sometimes. they can be really mean. 

I AM NOT ANOREXIC.

For this Wednesday, I have to read a 7 paged fine print back to back article about smallpox around the strait of Georgia in 1782. I still have the colds and I am currently suffering from toothache due to this stupid braces. In Addition, I am still in the waitlist for 2 more classes. 

These are just some minor set backs in my life right now. 

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

On the Brightside, I am finally watching The Avengers. I will be watching it later in the day with my long lost friend Arvin Joaquin (lol). 

#lifepleasebegoodtome! PLEASE :’(

School starts tomorrow! I am dreading it! I won’t have time to be lazy anymore. 

So for the whole 2 weeks break I

-watched The Avengers: Earth’s mightiest hero (from episode 1 to the latest one)
-watched Young Justice (from episode 1 to the latest one)
-worked
-was sick.

 not very productive. 

On the bright side, I learned a lot about Marvel and DC. Thanks to my boyfriend and Netflix haha. 

I did not read any book at all or hanged out with friends. That’s how “busy” I was. I wouldn’t really quote busy since I was actually busy. 

ahhhh! I still have to watch The Avengers: United They Stand & buy The Avengers Disassembled. 

lalalala k bye lol

I can’t wait to watch the avengers even though I do not like black widow that much and hawk guy.. but whatevs lol.

YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY lol.

I’m pretty sick today, so I just stayed in bed while mark was on cam lol. I was playing the song “Sa isang sulyap mo” and when I looked at the screen, my babeh was just staring at me, so I stared back while the song was playing and it was just this magical moment LOL. 

I’m so lame sometimes but AHHH! I love my babeh.

Oh and my overall gpa for this semester is 3.11 :/ I GOT A C+ on my geo :( I was really hoping I’d get a B- at least. oh well. 

life is beautiful. 

I saw my friend today. She went to Hawaii and got all tanned up.

While I, apparently got ‘paler’. 

Well….

I have been staying inside a building/house for the past 3 months, slaving my way to get a decent gpa. 

oh college, why must you torture me. 

PLEASE PRAY FOR ME!

I have my political science finals tomorrow, and my geography finals the next day. 

I NEED A B FOR MY GEOGRAPHY! I desperately need a B! My prof. is a bitch marker so PLEASE PLEASE PRAY FOR ME!

I haven’t been studying for my political science because I badly need a B for my GEO! 

AAAAAAHHHHHH just 2 more days and all this anxiety will be over. 

:’(

 If you are depressed and people try and make you feel better. Their words won’t really matter. It’s just going to be white noise cause the possibility that life’s struggles can end in an instant is way better than the possibility that it can be better in the days to come, because waiting sucks. 

Happiness can feel so temporary, and you just hope that it sticks but you know that reality does not work that way. In the morning you can be happy, but feel the opposite in the afternoon. We go through an ongoing cycle.

sometimes,

making time stop is the only hope for change because that’s really what we are asking for. 

We just want change. 

at work yesterday, this 4 yr old kid told me he wants to be a pizza delivery guy! he wants to drive and make warm pizza! haha  so cutee

work is so cute recently lol. this kid cant say my name, he kept saying “aria” instead of “maria” 

nyways.

exam tomorrow!! pray for mee!!

I took this test online lol. (to procrastinate)

ETHICAL PHILOSOPHY SELECTOR (http://www.selectsmart.com/PHILOSOPHY/)

My result -

Your list is modified by your input. The results are scored on a curve. The highest score, 100, represents the closest philosophical match to your reponses. This is not to say that you and the philosopher are in total agreement. However this is a philosophy that you may want to study further.

I do not mind Hume, but Sartre? (he is depressing) eeerrrrrrrrrrr! lol . He’s a great philosopher but I don’t really like him. haha.